Here we go…I write because I know no better way to fully process and record my life and everything that is going on in it.
It’s ongoing and it’s beautiful and there has been oh so much since the last time I wrote.
Life hasn’t been the same without Olaf, and it never will be…but I’m grateful for memories and all his saved photos in my phone, which I often return to.
Plus, the last video I captured of him.
This was holy ground.
And I continue to learn that all ground is holy. There is no divide between the sacred and the secular, like I once believed.
Jesus is living in me…breathing the very breath I breathe so nothing is ordinary. It’s all magnificent and extraordinary.
Case in point: Coldplay concert. Soldier Field – Chicago. Reunion with a beautiful friend I made and hadn’t seen since four years ago in Pemba, Mozambique.
Sometimes, you just have to follow your heart and the need for adventure and trust your Good Father’s provision when you splurge on a flight for less than 48 hours in another place.
Because every penny spent proves to be worth its weight in gold when you find yourself in one of the most worshipful experiences you’ve ever had as you’re jumping up and down in the pouring rain while Coldplay sings, “A Sky Full of Stars.”
With every sense awakened, you find that your only response is, “YEEEEEEES, LOOOORD.”
Not to mention the words that your precious friend places on the experience that you found so hard to articulate but when she says it it resonates deep in your bones…”Don’t you get the sense that that is just like what heaven will be like?”
Me: “Ummm…yes, that is exactly what heaven will be like!”
But also, heaven experienced now…the Kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven.
This was holy ground.
Or there is the instance that you are connected with the most beautiful soul who starts to spend time with you and listen to your meandering thoughts with all compassion and love and reflects back to you what your heart already knows deep within, but your mind and body need reminded of.
So because she is truly hearing and seeing your heart, she suggests, “you should check out this thing I recently watched on YouTube…about a hummingbird…because you’re a hummingbird.”
So you go home and watch that thing, with tears streaming down your face because for so long you have been searching for this one thing, but you can finally let go of that thing, and embrace everything…because you know you are a hummingbird and this is your journey…
This was holy ground.
And then there is the date at 38 you asked for. It’s been 6 years since you’ve had one…you truly want to be married, but you lower the stakes and say, “I’ll take a date, God. If you could just bring that my way, I’d be so happy.”
So you’re six months in and there’s still no prospects and you can’t bring yourself to force it…but in all honesty, you do try the latest and greatest dating apps for all of 2 seconds…
But it’s just not your thing…and suddenly, you connect with a guy in the stairwell you walk up and down for work every day.
And you’re thrilled when he formally introduces himself when you have your third run-in and hands you his business card, and as you accept it, you say, “we should have coffee sometime!”
Something your best friends have been prodding you to do when the opportunity presents itself but you’ve felt too insecure and old-fashioned…but now, with all fears aside and in full confidence, you follow through!
Sadly, your hopes are a little dashed because this guy is a bit more flakey or something (you’re trying not to judge) than you thought…
BUUUUT…but!! You got over that hump…you conquered your fear of asking and rejection…and the even deeper insecurity of believing the lie that there is something majorly wrong with you, which explains why you’re still single at 38.
Suddenly, confidence is rising and you’re walking so much taller than ever before.
So much so that you make eye contact with the hottie in a business suit that you would have considered way out of your league and never in a million years even looked his way, but now you do as you walk past him and down the aisle to board your seat on a recent flight.
There was no wink. No smile. Just eye contact. And that’s huge. That is a win in my book and I’m taking it.
This is holy ground.
So A LOT. A lot has happened. And I haven’t even touched on the leaps and bounds and healing happening in my workplace and in my physical body. I’ll save that for next time. I promise.
For now, I’m taking off my shoes and basking on the holy ground I’m standing on.
With every opportunity, I get to experience His presence with me, in me, and the promise of life lived more free and abundantly.
Nothing is ordinary. Everything is extraordinary.
Nothing simple. Everything sacred.
And this makes life so much worth living on earth as it is in heaven.
“…put off your shoes from your feet, for the place on which you stand is holy ground..” Exodus 3:5